“I don’t know exactly what a prayer is. I do know how to pay attention, how to fall down into the grass, how to kneel in the grass, how to be idle and blessed, how to stroll through the fields which is what I have been doing all day. Tell me, what else could I have done?

Doesn’t everything die at last, and too soon?

Tell me, what is it you plan to do

With your one wild and precious life?”

-Mary Oliver

It’s been a year since my little paws have touched this keyboard to write the blawg. My mom and Ive been working on a project the past 15 months…it’s a short film on yours truly, me. I told her I’m not an attention kind of guy, thats more Lassen’s personality but she is doing this anyway…aww the torture! About 10 years ago my pawerents started going to the Banff film festival. It was there that they saw short films about people with their dogs out in nature. My mom fell in love with a film called Denali. The next year she came to love the film Ace and the Desert Dog. It’s only been a dream of hers to do a story on me, but recently it has become a reality. I hear that im going to be debuting this film Saturday November 11th. All you dawgs are invited!

When we filmed some of the movie last October, my pawarents had no idea that my cancer had come back. About a week after filming, they found out that my cancer was back at my thyroid, lung, and now at the base of my heart. It was a rough time and they decided not to cut the thyroid cancer out again due to risk. We’ve been targeting the cancer and my last scan a week ago it showed that the thyroid tumor had shrunk and was stable, lung cancer had barely grown and the heart tumor was completely gone. But we got the devastating news that the cancer has attacked my kidneys. Don’t go crying over me yet, Im still out hiking like a big dog, acting like everything is perfectly normal, and running around with Lassen and trying to dominate him through inappropriate ways and of course running to Three dog bakery…as well Bear Coast coffee where they give me prosciutto everyday! I love that place!

Halloween was a week ago, but in dog days thats like months ago, but i wanted to share what my pack made Lassen and i dress up as…the characters from the show Ted Lasso. My dad kept telling my mom that like every year that this would be  too hard to pull off. So of course she was motivated like a big dog to pull it off, just like my eniem costume and lassen’s snoop dog costumes in the past! Dad was grumpy roy kent, Lassen was the football player Danny Rojas, well because  Lassen is eternally happy like that character (“Football is life!”), my mom was keeley Jones, and my mom made me Ted Lasso because she said I have the purest of hearts. 

‘If you care about someone, and you got a little love in your heart, there ain’t nothing you can’t get through together.”

-Ted Lasso

Halloween started out with me going with my best supporter ever, Lassen, to the doctor to get my high dose vitamin C infusion. I wore my seal costume and Lassen was a squirrel. We were a big hit. We then made our way through san Clemente meeting aunt Leslie  and ollie at three dog bakery! I should truly be sponsored by them by now. Then we visited our dawgs at United Cebral Palsy center. We were apart of their halloween pawty. I know we are there to be therapy dogs, but the butt scratches and love we get there are like therapy to us!

A reminder for all my dawgs out there, we are all on borrowed time. Give a sloppy kiss, scratch a butt, spend time with the ones you love….get outside, smell the air…right now this present moment is the treat. I don’t know how much time i have here but i know that my Creator loves me.. I go to church but really that has nothing to do with knowing God. I am glad that the church knows my pawarent wont show up without us and they love on us. My mom often talks about how humans are inconsistently there for each other, how they disappoint, love conditionally. She says it’s too hard to love like I do but she will keep trying anyway. So today my friends,, live life deeply from your heart and soul, no matter what is thrown in your bowl. We are all walking each other home.